May & June: LA Dream, wasted connections and bad boys
I was able to do three things these months think about the past, and watch sex in the city, as well as look for a new job
May and June I’ve been bored out of my mind, I’ve spending restless nights in my bed and rotting at the thought that I’m wasting my life away. It sounds corny but it’s just something that happens to me when I’m alone for a while. However this uneasy feeling kind resolved itself when I booked a flight to New York and got a new job, I hope things will look up for a girl like me I hate these curve balls.
Packing up my apartment room is literally the saddest thing I’ve done in my life. I was literally standing in the middle of my room for three minutes looking around, and remembering how lively it was just a couple of months ago. Now it’s over, I couldn’t help but think about the night I fell off my bed, when my roommate screamed in her sleep, the night my roommate and I had a photoshoot drunk off our minds and thought we made art. More and more I get sad at the fact that it’s all over:(
The first purchase made for our room circa 2023
I started watching sex in the city , and jesus Samantha Jones is my idol, her gay arc was iconic, her cougar arc was iconic, and her way of seduction is iconic. Kim Cattrall is a genius.
I’ve been obsessed with watching Olive Ugly’s asmr videos on YouTube to fall asleep. Now that I’m scared to fall asleep in my room alone, one night I was scrolling on tik tok until 2 am to get myself tired enough to sleep. Someone uploaded a clip of an office siren asmr on YouTube, I decided to watch and it’s genius, there is a variety of these asmr videos some of my favorites are. “Toxic gay manager” “ASMR Italian mama does your hair” and “Gabbriette bakes you brownies”.
I recently got some clothes sent from motel rocks, yes a step into my influencer arc, I was asked to choose a top and a bottom, and make three tik toks. I was so excited, until I tried the clothes on. The clothes was cute however I hated the way it looked on me so ive been putting off my tik toks. Which I keep getting emails that I have to post them but what the heck can I do If the jeans give me a camel toe.
Cutting hair is my new side hustle, I’m so good at it. It all started when I cut my own hair after getting frustrated that my hair was getting in the way of many things. I won’t clarify. I chopped it and it looked fab. But then my roommate Gwen she’s a saint for having trust in me let me do a full on shag on her and it came out splendid. And now I just cut my hair into a bob, but not just an any bob I gave myself a Taylor Russell/ Alexa Demie bob.
The announcement of Smile 2 literally made my week after getting fired and having to search for a new job ( only took a week). However new trailer dropped and I can’t wait to see those smiling freaks again.
“Ain’t nobody Straight in LA” by The Miracles a song about how no one is no longer straight in the streets of Los Angeles. A song ahead of its time, the best part is the voice over of the singers talking about what bar they should hit next and how it no longer matters which are gay anymore, who cares as long as they are having a good time.
I dream. I dream of a Thierry Mugler vintage bag for only 109 dollars I picture myself strutting the streets New York with it on my arm a girl can dream.
After a long time of loathing I redownloaded hinge what I’ve gotten, two hangouts that have gone absolutely nowhere and some questionable likes. I have such a love hate relationship with this app, like I can’t sometimes I want to vomit at the fact that I’m on it, and sometimes I’m having the time of my life?
I’ve been thinking about my perf one day fling with this guy from LA, a wonderful night of bonding while smoking cigarettes, followed by a cuddling session. I found myself being intimate and letting myself go to absolute butterflies, it was truly a good night and I keep thinking about how he’s gone after that one night but he was absolutely perfect for the 24 hours I had with him. He looked like your absolute asshole on the outside, with his greasy hair and tattooed arms, but he was so sweet.
Perfect match has been my other hyper fixation, the people at Netflix had their shit together when they came and made this show, cause it’s perfect. At the villa returning stars from previous dating shows come together to find their perfect match. It just hot people finding their true love. Season two came out and it upholds to season one, and to top it all off harry jowsey is in the season, he brings the drama with his previous scandals. I truly love this one scene where he’s freaking out for flirting with another girl after telling his match that he loved her. And then she comes into their room and says “it smells like shit” cause for some reason i know it smelled really bad and I wasn’t even in that room.
I want to rob Carrie Bradshaw’s closet so bad.
My obsession with mad max, but just the new two movies cause the old ones don’t hit, and don’t get me started on the six wives of immortan Joe, cunty in the midst of a apocalyptic crisis.
That’s all for now, like I said it’s been a mundane celibate month, all I can look at is my amazing bob and wait for my New York trip.
Xoxo
Dream on